lovebug

Your hands shake. Your palms sweat. Your heart swells so huge it’s suffocating, pressing awkwardly against your lungs. You’re nervous for no reason. You can’t think properly. Whenever you see them in a crowded place, you stop what you’re doing and just stare, unable to concentrate, and it takes a huge effort to pull yourself back into the present and not get lost in the simple way they make you lose track of everything, all the hurt, all the pain, all the destruction going on around you with just one simple glance in your direction. After the tiniest conversation with them, you’re happy all day. You go to their facebook, or myspace, and stare at their page for hours. You flit through pictures just to see them one more time. You stare at their phone number, wondering what they would think if you texted them right now. Sometimes you sob uncontrollably because of everything you’ll never be, and sometimes you laugh so hard your lungs hurt because of one tiny joke they made. A mixture of envy and deep sadness crawls through you vivaciously whenever you see them conversing happily with someone else. When they talk to you, you smile hugely, even if it’s just a small “What’s up?” You make sure everything is perfect when you know you are going to see them: Your hair, your clothes, your teeth, your smile, your smell, your voice. You plan out what you are going to say, let your mind run through thousands of different ways to confess, but you never speak a word. They are everywhere and nowhere at the same time; you see their shining face in the crowd even when they’re not there, and whenever you make one of those misconceptions your heart rate speeds up uncontrollably until you realize that it’s just the face of an innocent stranger, and you calm down until the next time. You wish you could run into them at the mall, but at the same time you don’t know what you would do if you did. They are intangible, untouchable, a distant hope and dream, too far away to grasp, but one that you want with every fiber in your body. You want to see them and to touch them and to laugh with them like they were your best friend. You want to hold them and be held by them. You want to feel a connection, a spark, anything between you both. You want it so bad it physically hurts.

And each moment you are privileged enough to spend with them is incredible. It’s beautiful and wonderful and everything is right with the world when you are with them, just standing there, simply existing and talking together. Together. Two hearts. Two souls. Two bodies. One moment when the two halves collide in brilliant unity. One moment when everything is perfect.

vanilla starlight

Why do we all watch movies and read books? We know that in every single one of these, there’s a happy ending for the boy and the girl, and that nothing will or can get in the way. In the rare case that the story doesn’t end well, the girl doesn’t get the guy or vice versa, we find ourselves sorely disappointed with the outcome. Why are we so disappointed? This is life, we know that we might not get the happy ending that we want, and that life isn’t fair like that. Then why does it bother us so much? We watch these movies as reassurance that things WILL work out, and that we CAN get our happy endings. No matter how much we say that we know it won’t happen, we still secretly believe that it’s possible. Why? Because as humans, it’s natural to hold on to any glimpse of hope that we find. No matter how much we say to others that the unexpected hug means nothing and that they only think of you as a friend, you find yourself hoping that there was something more. Only you know how you felt, and only you heard how fast your heart was beating. The options we have are to believe that it’s possible, or deny it. What does this leave us with? The choice to either embrace the love we’re hoping to feel, or keep it hidden deep amongst your thoughts to let out at the opportune moment. But either way, you’re still holding onto that last ray of hope. And sometimes, that’s all you need.

wanting what you cant have

He was unbelievably cute and sweet. But he is a player.He was everything any girl could want really. No one wanted us to be together, no one thought we would last longer than two or three days. We proved them wrong. But then everything ended. I was hurt. I was not fine, I told myself I needed someoneone that can replace him. But then I knew that he was the only guy I fell in love with. When we weren’t together. I told him and he told me he was sorry and that he was in love with someone else. This broke my heart because the girl who he loves doesn’t care about him like I do. She doesn’t know his secrets like I do. She doesn’t know him like I do. But she strings him along like everythings alright. He needs to see I’m here and she isn’t. I love him. I’ll do whatever to let him see that I’m true.No matter what people might say I'll keep loving you and you're the risk I'll be willing to take.

love love love

the best day ever with my girls <3

My decorated door haha,

screaming towards the skyline

Fuck what she says or does whens shes angry. You should know she doesn’t mean it, every “I don’t care,” is a lie, she’ll always care. Don’t sit there and let her walk away, run after her and hold her tight. If you don’t, she’ll miss you two times more than you’ll ever miss her.Why cant you ever get it ?? !

icrybloodyrainbows

My parents don’t even know the real me. They don’t know how many tears I’ve cried. How many nights I spent waiting for a call. How many times I’ve been hurt by someone. They don’t know that their “little princess” has grown up.

The Twilight Saga Eclipse

I'll stand by you forever and always Edward Cullen gah isnt he like the most perfect god creation LOL :)
Bella just look so much better with him than Jacob,but that is from my opinion ,whatever it is I'm gonna watch this movie (!)

ohh boy

I love my boyfriend, he means the world to me though I treat him like ass, but he’s still there for me. Even though sometimes, I feel like slapping him in the face for being super annoying but I guess thats what makes me so into him, he is my bestfriend and yet at the same time, he is my boyfriend. Mum says Im blessed to have a boyfriend who would do anything for his girl. I guess I am. I love you, boy.

me - you = nothing

Nobody understands how much I miss you, miss how much we used to talk and miss all the thing we use to do. I try not to admit it to myself that I still feel this way. Nobody knows that I still wake up thinking of you and I really do miss you. I would give up everything I have to be everything we’re not.But I know I'm not supposed to say all this : (

Time after time

When you said you missed me, I wanted to cry, I already did but I blinked back my tears. We both have changed alot over these few months. Deep down, I know you're still the same guy I fell inlove with a year ago.

New souul

Things have been brilliant this week. I came to realise that life can be as great as the ones you see in tv, its just entirely up to you, the paths you choose. Either you enjoy the simple things in life, or you dont. I cant remember the last time I felt this happy, this calm, I had some tough moments this week but it was just a fight with my brother, other than that, it was purrrfect. Maybe because you came along, :)

Nothin on you

I wish I could describe how I feel in words but I cant. If it has to be a word, it would probably be pfvwmvktjgnewfmms, its all jumbled up. We could relate our situation with Chuck and Blair, minus the glamorous rich lifestyle that is. Other than that, we are exactly the same. Indenial, confused, complicated, afraid and how hard it is to say those three words. No pressure. Youre different from all the boys Ive met before, its weird, youve been right there all along, why was I so blind?

All I got was just this broken heart from you

No room for regrets for mistakes made yesterday. The past is gone. No looming fate. No uncontrollable destiny. Nothing ahead. Nothing behind. Just stillness, light, warmth. The pain you felt, the pain you may have caused others, it’s behind you. No looking back. No fear, just the pulse of time; invigorating, soothing, fast in my light. Take comfort; you will never be alone.

Open your damn eyes!

Your life is going downdowndown, yet you aren’t changing ANYTHING. You’ve hurt way to many people in your life, most of them don’t even deserve to be hurt, especially by YOU — since they’ve stuck around, cared, loved, and stood up for your sorry ass. Yet we still care about you, -____-. Seriously, get your shit together. You live once, you don’t have the time in the world to change things. Change for the better now, then you will have greater future.

; especially for 'S'

I'm completely done with yr shit ! :)

I tried to save a girl from your bullshit, but it’s her choice, her life. So, I hope you guys the best!

Now, I will live my life. I am doing fine without you. I never thought you were a horrible person until YOU showed me YOU are one :)

woot woot :D

the title sounds like i'm happy but the fact is i'm not..
I love you.. but you know as well as I did that our relationship wasn’t fully stable. We had more downs than ups, but… I continued to love you. We bickered and fought until we got our point across, got upset when we didn’t, but… I continued to love you. Our smiles were brief, to which it was always followed by some sort of irreplaceable pain, but still… I continued to love you. Sometimes, we yelled, we laughed, we cried, but… I continued to always love you.
Now we’re walking our own paths, doing our own thing, living our own life like we never knew each other, but yet… I still love you, and until the day I cannot say it any longer, I’ll continue to love you, to love every bit of you. To love the upset, angry, stubborn, selfish, happy you.
I love you.

:)

the test da hbes fuhh ^^ major relieve ,
and the good news is that i'll finally found someone . . .
thats all for now haha,

cant wait :)

must watch must watch must watch :3

awwwwww :)

adoraaaaaaaaaaable tehee

the routine bebehh

that is soooo true

I wanna wear it someday ;D

Isnt 'that' amazing ? huh i love it i love it (:

is it true ??

When a boy teases you all the time,he actually like's you

HAHAHAHA :DD

D:

Never ignore a person who loves you and cares for you. One day you may realize you've lost the moon while counting the stars.


Just found it on somewhere, but what I'm afraid is that I kindda hardly

do this.....

oh my :)))

CHASE CRAWFORD

P E N A T

smlam ada latihan roadrun fuhh exhousted gila . . da la ptg tu hjan s*** grr hbis bsah kasut,
but the fun part is kitorang sume had a lot of fun with ahli qm,dorang sume baik hehehe,

i miss you MR.F da lama kau tak tegur aku,if last year kau la my no 1 enemy :D kindda miss the old classmate tho, 3DEDIKASI ;(

youuuuuu :|

lately i just cant understand what is wrong with you,why you've been acting so weird ? :{
it hurts my feeling you know,sekejap kau ok then all of sudden you've changed,
i just want the old youuuu...thats all i'm asking,

HELLO FEBRUARY

Cause I have all the reasons to be happy
and I realized I was just making myself miserable. Why burden myself with things that keep me from being happy, right? Time to live a life the way I want it to be. Happiness is a choice, hope I won’t ever forget that. :)

something fer you guys

as we know tak lama lagi valentine's day rite ? tho we can't celebrate it in islam

but my oppurtunity is just to wish you guys out there yg ada couple to last :))

seriously i'm happy to see the happy couple,stop listening to wud people might

say about you or yr partner,they never understand wud you feel

may all of you guys be happy with yr partner

but lets not frgetting to those single ladies :D i just hope you guys will found

yr mr.right and sometimes the person you needed the most is standing

right infront of you,you just didnt realise it :]

just updating :)

the good news fer today :

i've had spicy chicken mcdluxe after school td yum yum :D anddd

i get to met him :) tx fer accompany me back home

the sad news fer today :

please believe me,i know i shouldnt do this to you but i cant force myself to love you,

tak ada niat pun aku buad kau mcm tu . . . . mybe we're not meant fer each other

and plus you deserve a girl that much more better than me,i know things arent gonna

be the same again after this nak nak lagi kita classmate . . . . i really hope you can

treat me sama mcam dlu,

tired day %_%

huwaaa just got back from event fer qm but i cant remember exactly dkat mana :)

i was enjoying ze show tho i'm not entering any of the contest :D busy body j hahah

damn my legs hurt ! math exercise mostly finish fuhh relieved wink wink * but....

seni punya stuff ta beli lagi @_@ well tgok mlam jap lagi kod baru beli :P

well i guess thats all fer today :3

O-O

prettayyyy :)

idk actually , but enjoy my post :P

Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn now to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first, cause without sadness, there’s no happiness, you would never learn to smile

fer you sayangg :3

kebaboomm

Well behaved - women rarely make history

MARILYN MONROE

so fer those who 'well behaved' girl you're seriously missing out gahahaha !

a movie that must watchhh :)

i just cant wait to see this movie,all the actress and the actor are freakin hot !

Random

Jeolousy is an illness get well soon bitchhh

Who are you to judge me ?

I know I'm not perfect and I DONT claim to be

but before you're start pointing fingers,make sure your own hands are clean

Confessionnnn

i've had a crush on this boy as known as MR.F , but.....
i guess it's just not working so lets MOVE ON bebeh haha :D

Dying to get this stuff (!)

as you can see i am those who kindda pinkaholic type-o person
i just cant help it HHA for those who really love me buy me this sort of thinggy ^^

I'M SORRY :|

i dont love you to be honest , the reason why i said yes is because i just need someone to help me get over him , omgosh what hve i done :( i cant force myself to love you so today you finally know the truth and i will accept all the consequence that might happen to me after this

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND